Fruit of the Womb Archive

I was wondering how in the world one ever makes a huge, enormous decision that affects the innocent lives of others. I still don't have the best answer in the world, but it comes with lots of prayer and feeling in your gut what the right move is...then...and this is the hard part. Remembering that even if you make the wrong decision, God is not going to put you on his "strike with lightening" list. But actually still considers you His favorite. Imagine that?? Anyhow, I have struggled with this last part for quite sometime...i mean, why wouldn't God want me to adopt these babies?? My only answer is that He is bigger than i can see and cares more about them than we do. He has given us peace about the decision and dreams that are yet unfulfilled in our hearts. We can feel that adoption, at this time, is not right for us. Key word: Us. Mike and I have had lotos of conversations about us, our kids, our family, and our dreams. We have cried many tears over these babies, ch...

How do i put this?? For the past 15 years i have wanted to be a midwife. The first homebirth I attended in 1991 changed my life. My apprenticeship for the past two months, during this time of massive, mind-blowing changes in my family have served to help me realize a few things. In order to enjoy my life, travel, do the things i want, i cannot become a midwife. I need to utilize the things i have learned and stop putting my life on hold for a fulfillment of a dream that was not meant to be. I could write about the beautiful, empowering birth I stayed up at all night to witness two nights ago...but I am going to go a different direction. Entirely. My belief is that when things feel like a struggle, when you have too many pieces of the puzzle to make one thing work...maybe it is not meant to be. I have learned to trust God...that the "steps of a righteous man are ordered of God" Maybe my midwifery goal was my idea of how to get what i wanted. However, I trust God with my life. ...